A new year . . .

I really want to try and keep up a steady blog, at least post once a week. I think I've come up with a great way to stay motivated in more than one way. . .

I usually don't make New Years resolutions. No one can really keep to their word because somewhere down the line, something gets in the way. This year I went along with the usual plan . . . no resolutions. However, writing seems to make me happy. I don't usually post these on facebook. I know other people who do and a few of them say they enjoy the positive/helpful feedback they get. So I'll try it and see how it goes.

Last year (oh, that sounds weird!) was an eventful one. It started off with my grandmother passing away which was really hard for me. Still is, honestly. I don't like talking about "sad situations" because they're sad and being sad is not something I enjoy. However, I definitely find peace in the things her passing has brought to our family. Denny went to Disney with us and it was an absolute blast. It's nice having another 'big kid" on trips like those. (Besides my parents, if you know them at all!) Summer was blah - I had a class to take and it was horrible. The upsides were days on the lake and helping La plan her wedding. Wedding festivities were fun of course but it really made the summer fly by! (I"m pretty sure La and Bone would agree!) School started and I was pumped for my last semester and for student teaching. I'm rambling for a reason . . . I promise.

So throughout all of this, I noticed one thing. My clothes got tighter and I started to dislike pictures of myself. I love pictures - I love taking them and being in them with other people. But it got to the point where I avoided a camera. Denny will attest to this because he knows how much I love pictures and we hardly take any. Most of this is my fault - I just don't like the "look" I have had for the past year. I'm not sure when I started to gain weight. I lost a lot of weight after a certain "event" 2 years ago but that was more stress and anger taking its affect on my appetite. But I haven't really noticed that I eat "worse" than before. Maybe I'm not as active?? I feel like I walk all the time but I don't truly know how far I walk. (I bought a pedometer to fix that!) So basically, my issues is weight...along with the other 100 million people in the world.

So I think I'm going to start to write about my attempts to "get back into shape." I have two friends who keep blogs about exercising and losing weight and I love giving them positive feedback so maybe, in a way, this can be therapeutic for me. I'm not looking for pity or for questions - just a "way to go" or something maybe somewhere along the way. And I think being vocal about my journey will help keep me motivated. I won't lie - I hate lying and liars so only truth here.

I weighed myself on January 1st. I"m not quite sure I'm ready to post that on here yet. A friend of mine is brave enough to do it . . . Super props to him, but yeah...not for me at the moment.

This week has been fairly good except for 2 trips to a drive-thru. Both were avoidable but I was STARVING and far away from home. :( The gym has been my friend but only for cardio. I'm looking for someone to work out with that can point me in the right direction with what I want to work on. I go to LA Fitness but their trainers are so $$ and its just not in the budget since my budget goes towards my trip to Europe this summer.

WHEW! If you actually took the time to read this - props! And thanks!